Ok, so as much as I am crazy about the fact that tomorrow is Day 1 of New Beginings, I am really nervous. Tomorrow I am getting my braces put on. Now on the plus side there's going to be a lot of things that I wont be able to eat. What will that mean, well it'll help on my new diet that I will be starting tomorrow as well. On the negitive side.. I AM NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO THE PAIN!! From what I've heard, braces are painful at first and then more pain at every tightening. HAHAHA.. yeah yeah, I guess if I can pop out 2 kids, I sure can deal with toothe aches. One day at a time right?
So I've been asked, why blog about your experiances? Honestly, it's because I know a lot of people have gone or will go through the sames things that I am currently facing. It's not easy being a BBW (big beautiful woman), with 2 children (8y & 3m), and being a single woman. It's been a long time since I've been told "I love you" by a man, it's been even longer that I've felt even close to saying those same words myself to someone (although I might have wanted to recently but the time wasnt right). I figured that if I talk about my experiances then that will make my goals that much more important to reach and in the same, that much easier to bear.
What are my goals? First and for most, I need to change physically for the better. I am too over weight and that is not healthy. Dont get me wrong, I do feel comfortable in my own skin and I am confident enough "to hold my own" if you know what I mean. Even though not many men admit to it, there are quite a few chubby chasers out there that like their T-Bone Steaks. As much as I love the men who love me, I need to get healthier. My 3m old kicks my butt when it comes to physical activities plus it's just going to get worse if I keep the weight. How heavy am I? I work at a hospital in San Diego, CA. I weighted myself today on one of the scales here. Since I'm starting my new diet plan tomorrow, I need to keep track. The scale read 294. It's actually less than what I weighed before I had the baby, but it's still too too high.
2nd goal is to better myself mentally. I am going to be 33 on July 19, 2010. I'd say it's about time for me to gather my thoughts & focus on my future. I will be going back to school and get that degree I should have gotten a long time ago. I have decided that I will be returning to school and become a Physical Theropist... yet another reason why I need to loose the weight, so that when I do finish school, I'll be able to physically handle the job. Some people (aka my mom)would like me to find a husband. Honestly, so would I, but how am I too expect someone to love me unconditionally if I myself dont always like looking in the mirror. I need to work on "ME" before I can handle an "US". Lord knows that when I do become a MRS somebody, I will be giving that somebody my 120%; but for now, I need to focus feeling better about me. Oh but wait, that doesnt mean that I wont be available for an "US" shoot.. didnt want to come across like that.. if there does become an "US" then that man will need to be a positive enfluence and help continue reaching my goals.
About Me
- Connie H.
- 1. There are at least two people in this world that you would die for. 2.. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way. 3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you. 4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you. 5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep. 6. You mean the world to someone. 7. You are special and unique. 8. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you. 9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it. 10. When you think the world has turned its back on you take another look. 11. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
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