Today has been a tough day since the moment it started. From 12a to present.. and still more to come. Where do I start? Ok, well I was on a date last night. 1st day and very low key. We were at the cafe (I usually prefer low key for a first date, it's easier communicating then at a place with a louder ambiance). I ordered a simple soup (it's all I've been eating these last couple of weeks) and he ordered a T-Bone steak. Conversation was casual and so far so good. Then, when we were handed the tab, he looks at me and says "Sweetie, I forgot my wallet, I promise to make it up to you the next time." What the F_ _ _! If I invite then I pay, I get that, but I was asked out and now I still have to pay? WOW... what is a girl to do. Ok, so I keep my cool and finish my coffee. He then orders Dessert. OMG are you kidding me... holy shit.. he just had the tenacity (my new favorite word) to order more food when he cant even pay his first round. I didn't know what to say so I just sat there like a dumb ass. THEN... THEN... THEN.. when he starts finishing his dessert, he asks.. So, baby.. my place or yours. Ok, I guess I need to start working on my facial jesters because after all that just happened, it seems that instead of me giving off the expression of "no fucking way", I must have giving him a sign of .. "On my fucking way". Then, I said and did something classic. I've never done it, but wow, it felt good. I said to this man, "You know, that's a good question. Let me use the restroom while I think about that." I got up, walked towards the restroom, paid the tab with the cashier, and instead of going to the bathroom, I just walked out. On my way out I asked the hostess to let the gentleman whom I was with know that I said.. "Neither... Good night!" I got in my car and drove off. Home by 1a. Lord have mercy. Men, can't live with them, can't live without them. Ok, so I got home and as the day went on, I made dinner and it was good. Then I got to work. I knew I should have called out sick. As soon as I came into work, we had a code 55. Meaning that we have a violent patient. Lone and behold, he was my patient. He's just a kid... 15 years old and with so much hate. We had 2 police officers on hand (one was hot btw. It's always great when men have their own handcuffs.. hehehe) Unfortunately, I witnessed something that I wish I didn't. I cant go into detail about it but sufficed to say I almost broke down in tears. I have been exposed to a lot of hardcore experiences, both in life and here at work, but nothing would prepare me for what I saw today. NOTHING. I'm a mother and the simple thought of not being able to help, not being able to comfort, and so much hell breaking loose all around me.. I almost lost it. Almost...
Thank God for tomorrow.. thank god for tomorrow...
About Me
- Connie H.
- 1. There are at least two people in this world that you would die for. 2.. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way. 3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you. 4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you. 5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep. 6. You mean the world to someone. 7. You are special and unique. 8. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you. 9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it. 10. When you think the world has turned its back on you take another look. 11. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
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